hurt

feeling kinda hurt & pissed off..

heard abt someone impersonating me on facebook.

been for a while now..

using my name & some random old pic of me 

posting rancid comments ard.d social site

i mean.. am i dat popular to have to experience such shit?
last i checked.. hell no.

dam.. sucks to be famous.. or powerful.. or rich.. 
anywhere in life actually

guess haters r part & parcel of it

gotta learn to deal w/ this bullshit.

tho honestly deep down

i hope d ppl i care abt won't think for 1 sec dat it's d real me

cuz it's not.

i'm not some sore fking resentful loser

who keeps going back to his shit & eating it up

in fact i'm thinkin he's got photos & other stuff

all pasted up his room wall

rdy to do some online jabbing at every opportunity

like some freaking psycho w/out a life

all cooped up in his rented apartment

cuz he's too jealous of other ppl's accomplishments
cuz he can't even achieve 1% of wad they've done.

haters..

damn..

ohwells i feel better now.

ty online journal i'll be back for a real true blog post soon.

rite now juz no time cheers & take care.

i miss u

i miss u
my lovely blog!
so much to talk abt
so little time.. work work
i'll be back soon =))

LCS EU Week 8 - Great End to Weekend

juz catching up on LCS EU today. amazing games gg on for Evil Geniuses, Fnatic Raidcall & SK Gaming! now awaiting d only Russian pro team, Gambit to start.. gonna be awesome! cuz they're all my fav in d EU side =)

Phreak & Qu1kSh0t one of d best shoutcasters no doubt! haha
oh & is dat girl new? she's cute!

gonna bring a sweet taste to d end of my week as we all return to work tmr. yay!

SBS inconsistency . MFT28

oooOOk finally got time to blog again.. been a while!

first thing on my mind is d imprudence of SBS or whoever's in-charge. just ytd morning, d service arrival time for 157 was supposed to be 7:49am. it reached at 7:57am. 8 minutes.. a whopping 8 MINS LATE. if it was 1-2 mins of inconsistency then dat's fine.. benefit of doubt no problem but 8 mins really? holy shit dude. i immediately demanded a reason upon boarding & found there was some kinda traffic accident w/ d previous bus. albeit this is quite legit but shouldn't there be contingency plans in case such a situation were to occur? wad r our daily tax into them coffers doing? this shouldn't be an excuse cuz we're talking abt Singapore here. i dun see anyone skipping dat 7% GST upon purchase of goods anywhere right? so y do we have to experience such upsetting circumstances? r u gonna write a formal letter to my boss to apologize if i happen to be late cuz of it? dats y i never take that 8.03am bus. dun wanna let them 3rd-party subjective natures dictate my punctuality.

well at least d driver tried to mitigate by accelerating slightly faster than normal between bus stops to mitigate dat down-time so kudos to him. then again this kinda set me thinkin.. y should i be angry abt this tho i have d right to? dun we all at times face difficulty grinding at 100% all day at work? either u gotta be lying if u haven't or u juz haven't achieved anything yet. so no point expecting out of others wad i cant do myself in my area of vocation. total understanding leads to sympathy which leads to holding back of hasty judgement.

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so i'm trying out d MFT28 workout for a change. simply amazing.. first week in & i'm already feeling a sense of renewed confidence. mentally & physically tougher as well. did legs on Sunday instead of friday & dat delayed onset muscle soreness really kicked in so hard i took 4.5 days to recover almost fully or not feel d strain anymore at least. but dat's great! means i'm growing.. using muscles dat i've never really touched b4! chest is easier maybe ard 3 days & d soreness fades. back would take abt 2 days. shoulders & arms abt 1.5-2 days a piece. good stuff imo =) gonna keep my heart rate healthy enuf to possibly pass my yearly reservist IPPT till 2020.

reason y i chose this is also cuz it allows a balance of look & functionality. fits right in w/ wad i want. not looking so much for dat Jay Cutler kinda build.. juz not feasible for me is wad i think. anywayz believing this'll all come to fruition in 56 days. gonna continue even after dat tho cheers!

passed IPT grade 3! busy busy quarter

just passed my reservist year's IPT-grade 3 for cat X !! 

WOOHOO dam happy like blithe-mode is on rite now dude ty GOD!!

for me it's considered a sense of achievement to be able to give everything i've got during a whole month of prep up till today. it's not a super high standard test but considering d majority of my time is spent working in an office as a civilian, it's just difficult using w/e free time i have simply to stay in shape(IPPT style) when my passion is to have a good-looking body w/ functionality instead of full-on functionality at d expense of physique. reason is simple, i'm juz 1.71m or 5"7 so unlike those taller guys who can afford to do both, i can only focus on one. 

talking abt this i kinda admire those "California/FitnessFirst" fitness instructors cuz they can easily drive thru a pass or silver IPPT standard since their work requirements alone already keep their heart rate above any of us office drones. dat's nt even including fine diet & nutrition etc lol. but oh well dat's life enuf ranting abt this imma see how i can go abt making d most use out of wad i have in this area!! 

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ops manning till April 2nd! urgh.. our entire battalion r now on standby cuz rumours have it dat we might be activated on 23rd, 29th or 30th of March for field pack inspection & weapon-handling tests etc. almost done packing it but from wad i hear & have seen, d field-pack inspections' usually not strict since d main point is to test if all of us can arrive on time & scan our names. wad i'm hoping for tho, is dat we don't have to be called back cuz it's gonna be so inconvenient due to work & all. fingers crossed man!! 

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BUSY BUSY! plate's so full atm but i'm beyond any doubt contented to land employment in a somewhat fun environment & getting a consistent monthly pay check dat may see rise soon. boss & manager's lenient & understanding as well too! definitely better than sitting home playing computer games all day & earning F***** ZERO income like a bloody childish parasite dat i was last time. but it's k cuz winners & losers both make mistakes, juz dat winners get back up again! i wanna be dat winner in life! not there yet for sure but better to keep trying than be on d couch w/ "what ifs" floating ard my decaying self. dat's d disadvantage of starting out being a gamer. if u dun make it big or lack discipline, u completely turn into a waste of society seeking only pleasure for urself & living in delusion forever. tk God for saving me from this life.

weekend faster come!! UFC 158, 22 March's WWE Smackdown, latest 2 episodes of Spartacus season 3 & a few other movies r waiting for me to savour!!!!!!!! dammit totally loving/hating this positive lifestyle dat i'm embarking on at d expense of enjoying all these shows haha.

Elimination Chamber . NYSS

WWE Elimination Chamber 2013 was a blast!

Alberto Del Rio's star power is truly authentic. goes to show dat size doesn't mean everything when it comes to championships. hopefully Big Show & any other future contenders can learn & take some tips from him. 

 The Shield is simply fantastic.. a real desired introduction into a new breed of entertainers for d fans! i definitely love watching their fast-paced yet strategic yet charismatic yet dynamic yet many more attributes dat many superstars can only perform once in a while. but these guys do it like a norm! impressive would be a total understatement here imo. good job to d talent acquisition or whoever's in charge!

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ok so juz had my first full-on facial session at New York Skin Solutions Plaza Sing outlet. paid like $300 for a 4-time treatment package. they said it's actually $330 for one ala carte so i kinda made quite a profit consumer-wise. seems pretty legit actually i feel my whole face being mended, reconditioned & expunged of them nasty lil' blackheads & acne/scars. this supervisor called Serene has definitely given me a satisfactory & outta-this-world experience! hope she'll get rewarded loads for her diligent & prolific work.

in fact i tink i'm not d only one who feels d same way even tho we have different skin issues. check it out here !

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i recently watched Ah Boys to Men I.. a trilogy movie directed by Jack Neo. i used to dismiss d notion of even watching it but after checking out d reviews & what not.. i decided to give it a try & to my amazement, i became a believer! yup definitely gotta go catch part II when i have time & maybe by then part III would be out? lol.. i guess it would be safe to call Jack Neo d Singapore-Steven Spielberg =) 

here's d acoustic & original version of d theme song. sweet stuff!

i reckon d reason y it's such a successful hit is cuz d movie is just so exceptionally crafted in a way dat it strikingly relates to everyone of all ages & dat it contains so much substance. tends to bring out d patriotic spirit in a guy for sure. now i definitely wudn't mind paying even $20 a tix just for this movie! haha alrite time for bed eyes tearing so bad.

End of Watch

d movie End of Watch is simply remarkable!

a medium-budget production yet able to draw out a variety of emotions from d crowd

sensational! i'd give it 4.5/5 stars!

got some bonding sessions to show d LAPD aren't juz workaholics but also humans.

got d crime scenes up, props masterfully placed too!

gotta handle wearisome yet fundamental paperwork r d poor thing cops

OH! is this d end? maybe? maybe not? order ur blue ray copy now to find out! =D

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episode 17 of d creative animation series, Star Wars: Clone Wars season 05 has aired!

loving this made-in-UK cartoon so bad it makes me yearn to savour even 3-4 episodes a week! too bad it may not ever come true as it's rather taxing on d creative team unless they get expanded funding or smth. wish them all d best! 

Swagger . Family Stuff

finally got some time to blog again.. loving these 2 Chinese New Year public holidays!

anyway d recent WWE Raw was rather interesting. i'm liking this new Jack Swagger! he seems invigorated, focused & ready to move on to d top after having taken a break. who knows they could prepare him for a battle against Brock Lesnar in d near future but it'll prolly take a long period of brewing & planning to achieve dat match up haha

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so i wanted to blog about a particular issue ytd but was too spent to even play a game, much less do up another page on my diary. but tk God for Jasmine for being such a caring listening ear.. dunno wad i'll do without close friends who really understand.

so let's begin w/ a few easy questions..

did he pay a cent when my mum got her own house? nope. my mum did.

did he pay a cent for hospitalisation bills when my sister was given birth? nope. my mum did.

did he pay a cent for hospitalisation bills when i was given birth? nope. my mum did.

was he there for our school graduations? nope.

was he there to teach us in d ways of growing up when we were toddlers? nope

heck he didn't even celebrate their wedding anniversaries before their divorce.

was he there to protect my mum physically & emotionally when she needed? nope. in fact he would throw iron-like bicycle parts & bottles at her face & smear ashes outside her room door whenever he got frustrated. 

did he fulfill his promise of returning my mum d millions of dollars he owed, which is d least he could do? nope

all that could be forgiven yes, already has been. so when he was released, we tried to accept him, but even in the process of acceptance, he had returned to his old self of cheating & fabrication. took our house key on first visit to our home & duplicated it w/out our knowledge. changed my mum's spare laptop background to one of her guy friends & said "nah use this better wad.. ur lover wad etc" & all that crap which i tot would only be done by an adolescent. outright abuse of my mum's goodwill & kind-heartedness. he even had the cheek to expect/demand reconciliation? holy shit ever heard of d saying "haven't learn to walk, already want to fly"? & these r not all that he has committed AFTER coming out of his 9-year imprisonment. i tink if lee hsien loong knew wad he REALLY did, he wouldn't have given any award to dat corrupted loser. he'll prolly have extended his term to lifelong.

well i'll be damned to call him dad.. i'd much rather call him my mum's ex husband, rightfully divorced animal in pen & paper. in fact, anyone of my mum's suitors before Stephen Ho would make a better husband than him. how can one person be so full of lies & schemes despite having been to prison on a few separate occasions, with the 3rd being 9 years on account of the judge's leniency? put it plainly, i'm embarrassed to be his sperm really. but then again, our future is not dependant on our past.

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back from first day of CNY visitation! this year isn't too populous cuz one of my uncle passed away recently so their family had to go overseas on a vacation as they can't do visitation for abt one-three new years. dat's ok cuz i'm happy to meet them all always. they may not be Christians, yet my relatives r consistently there to help my mum in time of need so tk God for them really.. i'll always be grateful & that will never fade. hope they'll continue to have a long & happy life ahead too! perhaps one day i'll be able to do them proud by being extremely successful myself so their efforts in taking care of us dun go to waste.

left w/ 48 hours of public holiday, i must be sure to rest & recover fully so i have adequate energy to grind thru d days into d next available p.h. cheers!